insomnia happens.
I lay here thinking of a time past.
A carnival sport from powers. I cannot recall the name.
A girl I met there and what we did.
I don't however remember her
Face
Name
Anything about her
It was maybe Pennsylvania
North Carolina?
A place I cannot remember
A spot I forgot
I wrote to "kilo"
That is ken
On a wall
I met someone there
Dale bunked across from me
Her threw the crazy out of my bunk when I was sick one time
Life's a carnival right?? Ride til you puke
I sit thinking of the past
Wishing for sleep as my nightmarish past
Haunts me
All I've done to those
Innocent of my judgement
Used so many
My control of the weak
Survival of the fittest right
I am strong
Minded
Willed
And most of all
I am smart
I control people with a silver tongue
Bending to my will is easy
Beating me if you're a mark
Impossible
This is what I did to this girl
At that spot
I don't remember her at all
What I remember is the control
I made her mine
In every way.
She spent money on me
Satisfied my desires
Let me have her self and her body for my own enjoyment
What did I get for it
A few orgasms?
A wind night out
She even Indulged things
Taboo things
The things she was willing to do
Her mind was weak and I preyed on her
The control was mine in every way
Do I remorse?
I don't think so
I never felt bad
Not even when I made her cry
She couldn't sit down the next day
I forced her to do it
She said yes then begged me to finish fast
The only thing I remember clearly about her
The feeling it gave me when I did it
She's never say no.
Then when I was bored of her I got her to leave
She left the show
Went home.
I went on to the next spot.
Not until this insomnia filled night did I think of her again
iSudo is a monster
