With Out Warning

Without Warning

Sometimes
you're traveling
a highway, the only road
you've ever known,
and wham! A semi
comes from nowhere
and rolls right over you.

Sometimes
you don't wake up.
But if you happen
to, you know things
will never be
the same.

Sometimes
that's not
so bad.

Sometimes
lives intersect,
no rhyme, no reason,
except, perhaps,
for a passing semi.

Dawn Broke...

A Rose-colored Rain
over distant hills.

We kissed for about
the thousandth time,

No promises,
no demands,

Just solid rebuilding
of shattered trust.

Then I said it.
She said it too.
I Love You
And everything
that went before
meant nothing.

It Was Mean...

So mean, it made me feel
better
but not quite good
enough
I could only think of one
way
to make things all
better
okay, so maybe it wasn't
truly
the best way to climb
above
my mounting state of
depression
but it definitely did
the trick
in fact, I had to laugh, it
was
so simple. I
just
had to open the bindle
calling
me on behalf of
the monster.

December 25 1986

Christmass is going to suck

I'm going to HAVE to be at Christmass dinner with my Mother and Grandmother.... I'll be there with out my son, with out my Girl, with out any of the people that I can deal with when I'm going through some shit..... Pray for me , Pray that I don't end up killing my family... or end up walking off and not coming back, or just act like a dick head and then drink until I an incompassitated and in capable of doing any thing more then rank and curse... Fucking pray bitches..... MARY FUCKING XMASS ITS JESUS BIRTHDAY SO GET OFF YOUR HEATHEN HINDU ASS AND FUCKING CELEBRATE !!!

Remember Remember The 5th Of December

Oh remember remember, the 5th of December
Marked by lyrics, ones to remember

The sky was dark with clouds of gray
The Hatter's lake, in night, not day...

Riding an iron horse, to show to the play
I joined the group then my horse ran away

I searched and I searched by night and day
Till a little blond pixie showed me the way

Remember, remember the 5th of December
A curse was placed to force me to remember

The Pixies words, the lyrics, of the curse of December
"Por Siempre, My dear, in lipstick on the mirror"

I called, I cryed, nd Then I wish I would have died

I am an utter mess...

I should begin with my Ex Wife.... Shes not replying to my emails or answering my calls and is up my ass with a lawyer trying to tell me I'm unfit to even talk to my son Lucas. I don't even know how to handle that.

My... well Not girlfriend but someone who I love a lot. She claims to love me too, and that she is not playing games with me... well we were partying with twitch and some others, and drinking.... she was all hugging on every other guy there, and ignoring me the whole evening... then when I asked her why she was ignoring me she got angry with me for getting a little jealous...yet earlier this week she got super fuck jealous over my paying just a little attention to someone else.

Last night I called my best-friend that I am more then a little in love with...and she wont even give me a chance at making her happy and making her my girl... in fact I would have succeeded in killing my self last night Like I tried to do if it wasn't for the fact that I got her voice mail and wanted to tell her good bye person to person.... Thats just not a voice mail I could bear to leave.

I called one of my closest friends and she made me feel a little better and made me know that I wasn't going to die, even though I lost what looked like alot of blood.

I Slashed my wrist last night... I did it the right way... not to necessarily kill my self although I did hope that I would accidentally end up doing the job.... but to feel physical pain.... I bled a lot... I soaked a Dish drying towel and my shirt and my pants leg.... physical pain is the only thing that seemed to help me not feel the emotions that were making me suicidal, but it didn't even work... now all I have is a blood loss, and sore wrist, a dull razor, and worse emotional pain then I have ever felt in my life... I hurt so fucking bad.... I just want to die...

Every thing in my life is not worth it... every thing in my life is a joke... My mother doesn't understand why I"m lonely and sullen all the time... I cry every night and sleep until the late afternoon.... Every thing I do just seems so pointless even writing this blog.... I only write it for you who can read it... who are on my preferred list, who are my closest friends, who might care if I die.... I write it to you so that if I disappear and you never see or hear from me again , you know that I died by my own hand, but that it is exactly the way I wanted it to happen and that I am in a better place. I don't know whats going to happen, I don't know what I am going to do, but what ever it is... I love you all very much and I"m sorry. it will be no ones fault but my own.

China Internet cafes switching to Chinese OS

BEIJING (AP) — Requirements that Internet cafes in a southern Chinese city install Chinese-developed operating systems are raising new concerns over cyber snooping by authorities, a U.S. government-funded radio station reported Wednesday.

The new rules that went into effect Nov. 5 are aimed at cracking down on the use of pirated software, said Hu Shenghua, a spokesman for the Culture Bureau in the city of Nanchang.

Internet cafe operators are required to remove unlicensed software and replace it with legitimate copies of either Microsoft Windows or China's homegrown Red Flag Linux operating system while paying a fee, he said.

However, Radio Free Asia said cafes were being required to install Red Flag Linux even if they were using authorized copies of Windows. It quoted Xiao Qiang, director of the California-based China Internet Project, as saying the new rules would help authorities regulate Internet cafes that now operate on the margins of the law, and allow them to undertake heightened surveillance.

Chinese who access the Web at Internet cafes are already required to register with their identification cards. Whether accessed from home or an Internet cafe, the Web within China is regularly patrolled by specially trained monitors looking for content deemed politically subversive or related to gambling, pornography, or illegal business dealings.

Large numbers of Web sites are blocked and dozens of Chinese citizens have been arrested for accessing or sending politically sensitive information over the Web. They include a former Shanghai university librarian imprisoned for three and a half years last month for downloading and distributing information about the banned Falun Gong spiritual group.

Despite such prosecutions, China has the world's largest population of Internet users with 253 million, and authorities are eager to encourage Internet usage as a driver for commerce. Internet cafes are patronized mainly by migrant workers, the rural poor and online gaming enthusiasts.

A woman reached by phone at Nanchang's Junlin Internet Cafe said officials came last month to replace the pirated software they were using. The woman, who gave only her surname, Wang, declined to identify the new operating system but said the new regulations had increased costs "dramatically," while customers had been pleased by the improved performance.

Fan Hongguan, a spokesman for Beijing-based Red Flag Software company said the company had been marketing a version of the operating system with chat functions to Internet cafes for three years. Fan declined to comment on the surveillance allegations.

"It makes sense for Internet cafes to use (Red Flag) because of their high user traffic and the system's safeguards against viruses," Fan said.

Associated Press writer Chi Chi Zhang contributed to this report.

Manson and a bird

So I'm staying with my mom for the holidays. My Mom has this bird... its an Eclectics Parrot. I was jamming out to some Manson Earlier today when all of a sudden the bird starts freaking out and dancing all over the cage. I'm sitting here like What the fuck. I mean she was Squawking and freaking out really badly... I thought it was the song so I changed it to Anti-Christ Super star to see if its the music or if its the crazy ass bird... well after changing the song a few more time all getting the same reaction I believe that This birdy loves manson. Lol Well thats all I think Peace Fuckers

7 Years For Closure

The black of night so peaceful.

Never Again A Dawn.

The black of night so peaceful.

All is dead and gone.

The black of night so peaceful.

All is Quiet and Still.

The black of night so peaceful.

Just This, It Is My Will.

The black of night is mine again.

Finally Retaking, For Never Again Will There Be A Dawn.

Moar Of My insanities

Some may need some Killer Weed
Some may need cocaine
some need cactus Juice to purify the brain
some men need two women
some need alcohol
Every one needs a little something
But LORD ! I need it all


Roses are red
Violets are thorny
Baby the way you look makes me horny
eat me
beat me
bite me
blow me
suck me
fuck me
very slowly
When you kiss me don't be hasty
Just use your tongue and make it tasty

ForEver

Blood Drips From My Lips.
I Taste Your Life On My Tongue.
Your Essence Feeds My Being.
I Live, Forever Young.

The Life I Take With My Lips.
Once Yours, Now Forever Mine.
You Belong To Me Now.
Bound By Blood Till The End Of Time.

Mine Forever More .
The Vampires Kiss Of Death.
You Were My Prey, It Was Over Fast.
Fangs Razor Sharp, With Eyes Of Red Glass.

~ ..(0_o)/

Some Candy I didn’t share...

So... another What would have been if I wasn't worrying so damn much.... you see there was some sweet Candy I got a chance to have once apon a time. But my Kitty wanted to try it too... She was however not awake when the candy was offered to me... I should have gotten her for a taste too BUT I was unsure of what to do... nad even a little greedy. So I had the candy all to myself and she didn't know I had it... until recently when she found out and was mad that i didn't share...

Moral of the story ?

When you are being hit on by a sexy little blonde with a nice ass, get your girl to join in or she will be angry she didn't get to play too.

Unequivocal Truths of irreversibility

Well I have realized a few truths in the last nights sleepless thought of anxious pain.

The first of which is that I do not feel like I should about someone I AM in love with... its just not a strong enough love for me to try any more, I MUST LET HER GO !


second; I know who I do love enough to try VERY VERY VERY hard to show that too in hopes that it may not be too late...

third; Loneliness sucks... I woke up at like 830, after about a total of 3 hours of sleep, and just laid there until 1130 not wanting to get up and face the day... then I wrote this and went out

Peace...

P.S.

You know who you are and I am unequivocally in love with as I have never felt before... you have always been there for me through think and thin, through good and bad, you care more about me then any one else and I love you deeper then I ever thought I was capable of loving any one.

A Realization

So... This has been an interesting experience for me...

I read a pretty EPIC love story recently and really enjoyed it a lot. This, however promising, is not my normal taste. I have been in Aw at WHY? why would I enjoy a book like this so damn much. It had me thinking for the past 2 days. Wondering.

Finally I realized it. I want that. I want that type of love in my life and have never found it. I am going to have to tell someone I care about a lot that there is no chance of taking it any further, because, frankly, I just don't feel that deep, unwavering connection with her. I tried I really did but its not there like I believe it could be. Something. Something is missing and I cannot find it in her.

I really am looking for a really down girl. That kind of chick that will be there for me through the thick of it and never allow her feeling for me to sputter. I need that type of bond that is always written about but rarely ever truly found.

This lack of a real, powerful love, I think, is Why I have been so BLAH... Well no longer I'm off to go get it... ladies look out The Little Blue Pimp Is Back !

Update

If you can read this then you know what I updated....if not Joke is on you cause I will not be posting public blogs any more !

I updated my preferred blog reader list so only people I consider close personal friends that I TRUST can read this ... any way if you can read this look at my last post and make me feel better...

Things that will make me feel better

Getting laid
ALCOHOL
Dead Baby jokes
Dead Pixie Jokes
Bunny Porn
Gangsters wearing TuTus
you know just the basics

Shock and Aw

So This Fucking Sucks Ass Hole ~

So... The Events of today have changed my life on a fundamental level... You see, a few months back at the end of July I moved to Cali on a chance. I took this chance to be with someone who professed her love for me after all the years we have known each other. So I packed my stuff in my car, quit my job, and drove half way across the country.


Now, all of a sudden she breaks up with me, and tells me I have a week to move out. I'll be fine thanks for asking I'm a soldier, these shoulders hold up so much they wont budge, even if my collar bones are crushed and crumble I will never stumble.


I'm going to be traveling again.. I'm going to Florida, my mother said I can stay with her until I ship out to boot camp!

This still leaves me with the question. Why? She gave me a laundry list of reasons, but none of them had the ring of the full truth to them... they are were valid in some way, I guess. When you know someone for 8 years you become able to read there eyes, and her eyes said there is more to it then just that which was said.

I think the monkey on her back has not left yet. I think she is holding on to something. Something from the past, but I think I will never truly know about this...

After the rant I leave you with this.... when Life gives you lemons have lemonade, but when life gives you limes have tequila. I think I need a drink.

You Know What

This is bull shit !

Ok.. so... There is some bullshit that has gone on over myspace, you know the normal minor grade drama. Involving me and someone else, that's all.
You see though, someone decided to put my shit all out there like that. You see I thought my shit on here was private, you know between ME and THE PEOPLE ON MY PAGE, no one else? or at least I thought. You know that shit offends me badly, I mean for real ? you did that, like that ? that's a deep cut./

You know this just really makes me question the validity of my trust. Have I miss placed it ? Am I wrong to trust the people I regard so closely to me ? Has my faith in certain things and people been utterly misplaced? Tell Me Your Thoughts Please

FuGu-a-boo-boo

Chef poisoned after eating 'fugu'

THE ASAHI SHIMBUN

A young cook licensed to prepare the deadly fugu, or blowfish, fell seriously ill last week after eating potentially lethal liver he cooked himself, believing it was safe, Tokyo officials said Wednesday.

The cook, aged in his 30s, has been certified for five years and works at a restaurant in Tokyo's Shibuya Ward.

He lost consciousness for about two days after taking a bite of steamed liver he had prepared during a practice session on Oct. 11, metropolitan government officials said.

Liver, ovaries and other fugu organs contain the deadly chemical tetrodotoxin.

The cook regained consciousness and is recovering, the officials said, adding he was unlikely to be disciplined, as an ordinance on handling fugu does not cover cases in which cooks prepare the fish for themselves.

"If we could have our way, we would like to revoke his license for such stupidity," a metropolitan official said.(IHT/Asahi: October 17,2008)

Faith a Sermon From The Priest

Reason is the souls right hand, and Faith her right

~John Donne

Wise words from a wise author. Taking meaning in this is easy if you just simply take it at face value, but there is something deeper here. You see faith is taking the first step even if you cannot see the rest of the stair case!

I ask that all of you have that faith. Not in god, not in your nation, not in your government. No not in any of that... I ask that you have faith in your fellow man.

It is said that in all men is a glimmer of good, no matter how evil they may seem. I my self being a priest, I am taught and teach that all men are good, even if they do evil things. The only truly evil thing is the indifference of good men!

I have, as of late, had my own faith tested in a major may... Beyond my issues with my Exwife, I have been having doubts about humans. I almost allowed my self to become indifferent, and in doing so I nearly became evil. I try constantly to keep the faith and hold my head above the ever deepening ocean of life. At time I nearly find my self drowning, but I remain strong.

Now I ask that you all try to do the same!.. I believe we together can change the world one smile, one held door, one polite gesture at a time. It's contagious, if you are simply a good polite person people will notice and start to act the same.

This sermon is coming about because someone special to me is having an enormous amount of faith in me. She is believing that I will succeed in my ventures, and in my life in general. I got to thinking about this today and realized that no one has ever had faith in me before, and I will wager a bet that most of you have felt the same... that is that you have felt like no one is there to have faith in you... well I'm here to tell you that I have faith in you all !

All of you that read this please comment ! Express your faith in the human race to triumph over the indifference ~!

Quitting Time

I believe that I am unable to continue working towards what I have been working towards!

I have tried and tried

Now I no longer have the constitution to continue in a vigilant stride to the prize

The ends no longer justify the means

I really don't know what I'm trying to say exactly but something has gotta give

I am for once in my life like no other time beaten, bruised, and down to the pulp

For those of you who know my situation well you know what I mean

After it all the one person who should be making me feel better isn't

I try to explain my self to no avail

I work like a dog at a job, busting my ass and they didn't even pay me on time

I just have to be done
Well for all of you that will read this send me some support, I really need it ~ !

Musings maybe ? or rather those accept one that effect frustrations !

Life really isn't a box of chocolates, that is if you are paying attention you should be able to tell what you are going to get./ However sometimes even when you know its gonna a coconut cream, you end up with a cherry toffee./ ..

What is it that makes people just straight to the worst possable conclusion? I mean what ever happened to the benifit of the doubt? I myself am even guilty of no assuming good intentions all of the time, even when I don't know for sure./ This is a flaw in humanity, and it is one that is inherently there./ No matter who I dare say that we are all guilty of this act at one time or another./ But never the less, I still find myself completely blow away by this act when I fall victim to either assuming the worst, or having the worst assumed of me./ ..

In the end aren't we all really intitled to have the benifit of the doubt? And if not Why? Human nature is not to be evil, or bad in any true way, yet when good intentions are there, it is often over looked and assumed to be negative./ For me this poses a huge problem. I myself, am a priest, a man of the cloth, I am tought to believe in the good that resides with in all humans, yet I find myself deeply troubled with the lack of good, and ricousness that is actually there./ Those we care about often hurt us the most, and those we do not even know at all often help us the most./ Could it be that love, and good intentions do not go hand in hand as they should? Or is it that people might actually not be truely good by nature and are infact distructive creatures, that have no real abilities to care for another with out allowing there intentions to become jaded and turned into something far less then pu..re ?

10:15pm Nearly Night Night Time

Wow I woke up sick as fuck today.... I have a full blown sinus infection ! It sucks... the other guy in my department called off work today too So I was kinda SKREWED ~!!! but I managed to make it through It was rough though ! ! !

Lets see what else... oh yes, then there is everything else... Well I am in fact joined the army. That is I will be swearing in soon, like this week hopefully ! then soon after I will leave for boot camp and I'll be a soldier !

Other Stuff
life is GOOD ~ !!! Hello WOrLD !

Also I am for a change very content with my own existence, to spite the fact that my ex-wife is being horribly difficult I am content !


well I guess that is all
No Matter the Denomination, or lack there of You are all in my prayers
~The Priest ~

Comments Welcome

Wow I woke up sick as fuck today.... I have a full blown sinus infection ! It sucks... the other guy in my department called off work today too So I was kinda SKREWED ~!!! but I managed to make it through It was rough though ! ! !

Lets see what else... oh yes, then there is everything else... Well I am in fact joined the army. That is I will be swearing in soon, like this week hopefully ! then soon after I will leave for boot camp and I'll be a soldier !

Other Stuff
life is GOOD ~ !!! Hello WOrLD !

Also I am for a change very content with my own existence, to spite the fact that my ex-wife is being horribly difficult I am content !


well I guess that is all
No Matter the Denomination, or lack there of You are all in my prayers
~The Priest ~

A Wonderful Change

Well... Where do I begin?

I guess I'll start with the Ex Wife thing just so that over with and I can get to the happy stuff.
I have managed to make peace with that in my own head... that is I refuse to allow her to effect my life any further. Barring the fact that she is the mother of my son and all that , I really think I'm going to have very little to do with her in the future. I was very angry with her, but I realized that hate and anger were eating me alive. I didn't like who I was becoming because of it, and so I'm letting it all go./


Well now for the better news....

I was having some other problems with a person I love very very much, but that is all behind us 100%. I truly feel that I have managed to return to a happy state in my life, and I believe that my Baby has managed to do the same .

We really went through a rough patch there where I acted like an over baring, jealous, and even mean douche. We were both at fault for the issues that arose, BUT I exasperated the issue because I didn't let sleeping dogs lye. All that aside we had this intimate, deep talk the last couple of nights, and so it looks like we are going to be okay ! I'm so happy I have known this give for almost 10 years of my life, and I have been in love with her since the first time we kissed all those years ago.

Reconnecting with Alicia was the best thing I have ever done, and I am finally content with my life. I know there will be rough times and there will be good times, but after what has happened recently I believe our relationship can withstand any thing !

Well... Its time for a game where I shoot at my friends so I'll have to talk to all of you laters Peace, you are all, no matter the denomination or lack there of, in my prayers!

~With Blessings
~~The Priest ~

Life The Universe And Everything

Well!

Just when I think the whole world is crashing down around me, and everything is working against me a glimmer of light! I might FINALLY get my divorce finalized. that is if that women actually holds true to her word for a change./

The Other Stuff...
Turns out I like it here ALOT ! the weather is fucking awesome !! !

More things about the last thing I wrote about.
Well there are still some people lying to be and plotting something they think might harm my life in some way. I really don't know what the fuc or why but they can go fucking kill them selfs for all I care... really I wish they both would. They know exactly who they are and I hope they know how much they suck at life and should just go DIE !

More on that but a change from my prior edit to it.
So the person I added stuff about in my last post, the one that hurt be badly with some stuff that happened and I can't really go into it a lot cause I'm just not gonna. Yeah, it's all good... well for now at least I'm still a little sore over it but I'm not so bad.... all was talked about, and all is being handled discretely and politely rather then what I would have liked to have done in a moment of anger.


Another Rant About Politics

FUCK YOU ALL !!!!
Seriously folks I'm joining the army and if you faggots get obama's nigger, muslim, liberal ass elected I might not only be out of a job, but he might just cause a second depression in the econemy so vast that it might actually end the union .!

Did any of you see the debate? any onE? I didn't think so///// Let me tell you Obama made him self look really stupid and proceeded to agree with just about everything McCain said proving that McCain is Definately the better man for the JOB!@@@@!@!

I'll end with this from my favorite Author::::Anyone who is capable of getting themselves made President should on no account be allowed to do the job.
~ Douglas Adams

Well that's it folks I'll write you all again Soon
~The Priest ~

You Might Think

I'm being deceived by someone, well not just someone but a multitude of someones. I hate not being able to trust people, and it pisses me off that people think that I am stupid enough to be deceived by them with out my knowing what is really going on.

I have yet to tell the people deceiving me that I know they are, BUT if they read this, they should know that dishonesty with me will not fly. They know who they are and what they are doing that is dishonest and wrong. Not only that but its a bit insulting they actually think that I am not smart enough to know what is going on. I mean really have YOU (thats for the dishonest parties in question) met me ? I mean really? Have you ?

So I guess this is the point where I am supposed to continue on and follow letter form of the thing and close with a final thought. Hmmm.... Well I guess I don't quite have the eloquence of the great philosophers so I think I will leave you with this. Be extremely subtle, even to the point of formlessness. Be extremely mysterious, even to the point of soundlessness. Thereby you can be the director of the opponent's fate. ~ Sun Tzu



::::::::UPDATE::::::::
So in an interesting turn of events It turns out that I was being deceived by more then just the people I originally wrote this about. Really though I mean What the hell is it just that time of the year where people think that they can just piss all over me? Correction This is no longer going on and I might not be as harsh about it as I originally planned

My Sons Pictures...Finally

So I finally got 2 things to work... 1 the internet, and 2 the code for this gallery.... Here is my Son Lucas Riley Dempsey... Feel free to comment on this blog, there will be more to come!

Moar From My Old Myspace

People, and the ways they try my patients Current mood: betrayed Category: Life The people that are in my life from the past and present continue to once again try my patients to no end. I don't understand this. I mean I understand the fact that they are doing it, but not why they would dare. I am a volatile individual to begin with, and testing me is a very bad idea. This time this person is standing in the way of progress, and causing me to have a huge head ache. The ignorance of that women, to not tell me her address so I can know where my son is living. The audacity of that horrible women, I mean really Do you people really need me to tell you how angry that makes me?>/ I'm really near the breaking point with this situation, and I believe I need to do something about it. As you all know by now, I an about to be sworn in to the army. But for this to happen they need my ex wife's information, SSN Address Ect, and that damn female is fighting with on allowing me to have it. Suggestions, Comments, Thoughts Are welcome Please !@ !@@

[25 Aug 2008 | Monday] ALCOHOL Current mood:Stabbing a mofo in the eye with a soldiering iron Gotta Love A_L_C_O_H_O_L!!!!!.... So I just grabbed a shot of and on my way back to the PC I nearly fell on my ass... Also FUCKING PPL I HATE MYSPACE !!!!!

[19 Aug 2008 | Tuesday] in the fields Current mood:Need kill a spic, decapitate corpse, fuck stump Category: Friends So I am slowly acquiring all of the people on my friends list so I have an army of slaves in the fields picking me some cotton

маленькие сволочи….

маленькие сволочи…. Деталь 1 на повестке дня….: Retards и ишак в 9 который; Я верю этому объяснению потребности небольшому для того чтобы сделать для несколько которые don' t знает будет под стойкой, поэтому кто-то мочлось я над паутиной как если бы я как раз проигнорировал бы ее… Добро очевидно я didn' краткость рассказа t хорошая длинняя я получил владение там личного info… все из его там называют, адресуют, знонят по телефону работе boss' s называет, мати адрес, адрес подружек… любой путь я получил ему полностью каждую вещь от чего они оплачивают для клетчатого обслуживания полностью к чему их подружка купила на последнем месте на ее кредитной карточке и im пробующ для того чтобы решить чего, котор нужно сделать с им… так по мере того как обычная законцовка столба в 66 говорит мне где вывесить его или чего, котор нужно сделать с им? Сетчатое ect повестки дня деталя………: Маклачество…. Маклачество, или звероловство работы то есть, терпят неудачу снова…. Fucking рынок труда такое дерьмо я положил внутри как резюма 500+ и получал 6 телефонных звонков… которые isn' t обязательно что неудача коэффициента признавает факт что 4 были от или армии или национальной гвардии… любой путь я сказал им fuck и умереть. .ect…. так если вы читатель блога вне там в зоне im в звоноке я и оплачиваете меня для того чтобы сделать, то причина вещества не работая дует assholes….ect?

Little Bastards....

ittle Bastards.... Item 1 on the agenda....:

Retards and the ass in nine that is; I believe this need minor explanation to make for the few who don't know will under stand, So someone has pissed me off over the web as though I would just ignore it... Well obviously I didn't well long story short I got a hold of there personal info... all of it there name, address, phone work boss's name, mothers address, girlfriends address... any way I got it all every thing from what they pay for cellular service all the way to what their girlfriend bought last on her credit card and im trying to decide what to do with it... so As usual post ending in 66 tells me where to post it or what to do with it ?



Net item...agenda...ect...:

Jobbing.... Jobbing, or job hunting that is, is failing again.... Fucking job market is such shit I put in like 500+ resumes and have gotten 6 phone calls... which isn't necessarily that bad of a ratio accept the fact that 4 were from either the army or national guard... any way I told them to fuck off and die ..ect.... so if you are a blog reader out there in the area im in call me and pay me to do stuff cause not working blows assholes....

Oh What an interesting week and its only Tuesday

Ok. First of all this was WAY too easy... I was Ordained and am now legally a priest. I filled out a few forms, and clicked 'Ordain Me' and viola.. I'm now a priest. Ok. What the hell someone some where thought it a good idea to allow me to become a priest... YEAH thats what I thought What the fuck ?

But its true I am now a legally reconized, fully tax free, completely capable of marying you, burrying you, or exorsizing your deamons, priest. Well I did it for the lulz and all but now I kinda like the idea of being a priest. So all you sinning fucks out there Confess your shit to me as blog comments . DO IT!, DO IT NOW ! ..

Job Market

WoW... and I don't mean World of WarCrack. The job market is shit.... im out here in SoCali and holly Fuck its DRY, and I don't mean the heat, the job market is fucking aweful....I have had a security clearence, I have done Engineering Technician work, I have even driven forklifts and set up carnival rides and I cannot find a job... I have put 300+ applications in and gotten 3 phone calls 2 of them from the fucking army... GOD DAMN FUCK YOU ARMY FAGGOTS ! ! ! ! ! ! #@! #@!@!@@@!!@@!@ ok but seriously folks If you have a job.... Fucking Keep it cause its fucking diffacult to find a job right now.... I'm honestly thinking of becomming a whore, or stripper cause this is fucking rediculous ! any Way The bastard is signing out Peace mother Fuckers......
~X

Happily Ever After

SudoEcks: ok
SudoEcks: you are an impartial 3rd party
grandthefthippo: yes
SudoEcks: me and my girl are arguing if happily ever after is possable
SudoEcks: I say no
SudoEcks: she says yes
SudoEcks: you decide
grandthefthippo: hmmmm
grandthefthippo: its like
grandthefthippo: is the perfect burrito possible
grandthefthippo: i mean you can put awesome beans and cheese and not even microwave it
grandthefthippo: like grill it and have steak
grandthefthippo: holy shit
grandthefthippo: so im gonna say
grandthefthippo: with a lot of work
grandthefthippo: very close to possible
grandthefthippo: but never quite
grandthefthippo: but thats okay
grandthefthippo: thats what makes the burrito awesome
grandthefthippo: therefore no
SudoEcks: you are a fucking god lol
grandthefthippo: :D

So... This One Time... Flute

ok so not really about a flute in a pussy, but about as much fun at that, that is coffee night ! just letting you all know I had a good night even though no one ever reads what I right on here cause you all suck.... and of course hate me. But I have to csay I like being here its awesome and Fun too Peace
~X

WOW OMG WTF

Wow OMG WTF ? ok So like I decided to like take a HUGE chance and do something I would normally never do.... in this case it was moving far far far away and going to see someone I have not seen in like ummmmmmmm wow like 5 years.... so yeah any way I'm glad I took said chance cause its great I fucking love it here and totally dont know what I was thinking prior to now !!!! Wow I'm happy and yeah just had to say some thing about it . ;)

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BLEH ! ! ! ! ! !

I FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL LIKE SHIT !!! ! ! ! ! ! !! ! !!!111111!

So.... I'm going to take this moment to tell you all how much I fucking hate you all. I know you are all loyal readers, and I know you are my fans, But I also know that you are people And because you are all people I fucking hate you ./ !

Somethings happening here, and what it is aint exactly clear.

For the first time in a long time I am happy, I mean I'm getting divorced, my Ex-wife is pregnant with my kid, I have a really shitty job, and basically my whole family thinks I am out of my freaking mind. But I really don't care about any of that. I guess you would call this the eye in the center of the storm, or a moment of total sight for a blind man, or a temporary enlightenment, maybe even freedom from the confines of the human mind if just for a half of a second. I met Cassandra 3 months ago and I have never been happier in all of my life as I was the moment I made it here and held her for the first time. and this is not something that is going to soon fade, or so it seems for the time being any way.


I guess all in all I am out of my freaking mind I mean I moved 800 miles north in to the frozen ass winters and horrible drivers, in the fucking neighborhood from the Stetford wives, away from my unborn son, away from the unstable psycho in to the arms of someone who really listens when I talk, someone who really thinks of me first, someone who accepts who I am instead of trying to change me into who they want and simply have not found yet.


As always your thoughts, comments, and questions are always welcome.
/.SudoX Root/:>

Les Paul Stole My Soul

Six tall men singing true
marching in line two by two

Singing along as I pick the beat
Picking away, I conduct at their feet

Tones vibrating from the open stage
Tones of gold, bronze, and beige

Gold helmets dawned, turning in place
Sounds of soprano and deep bass

Six strings and twenty frets
They sing for ever but it never sweats.

Books

Hey all I just published My First book. A Guide, to Urban Warfare; is a manual on how to make all sorts of nasty stuff from black powder to nitric acid, and back again. The book is 25 dollars soft cover and 12.50 for a download, If you buy the hand copy and email me I will send you The PDF so you can print it again if you need to do so. http://stores.lulu.com/ghostllc to buy it.

An awakening

Well, once again I feel the need to express my self via written word. This is brought upon me do to a change in my perspective of life. You see my life has recently become exponentially more difficult. My wife is 5 months pregnant, and our marriage is on its last limb.

I have been having an existential quandary of 'What should I do? '. Well I have decided that its over between us, but the biggest worry for me right now is my unborn child. You see her family are well, Hillbillies to put it nicely. you see she cannot both work and take care of my child, so the alternative is a babysitter. The baby sitter would end up either being her mother, a pill addicted women who chain smokes, curses like a drunken sailor, and falls asleep with a lit cigarette in her hand. The other choice would be her sister who is currently in jail for writing bad checks and Violation of parole (*~drug use~*), and has 3 kids with a drug using, child abusing, bastard.

Worse then all of this, she is showing the signs of postpartum depression already.

We are currently living with her parents, this is difficult to say the least. Any way I'm going astray from the topic at hand... Today I had to pay the electric bill so that it would not get shut off. Correct me if I am wrong, but to me that seems like the thing to do ? doesn't it ? I told her this, and she proceed to burst into tears, and tell me how we wont be able to to pay car insurance and its a huge tragedy. Any way I'm simply done, I cannot take it any more, I'm gonna kill someone.

Summation;
Life's a carnival, Ride 'till you puke.

~Sudo X Root