A Realization

So... This has been an interesting experience for me...

I read a pretty EPIC love story recently and really enjoyed it a lot. This, however promising, is not my normal taste. I have been in Aw at WHY? why would I enjoy a book like this so damn much. It had me thinking for the past 2 days. Wondering.

Finally I realized it. I want that. I want that type of love in my life and have never found it. I am going to have to tell someone I care about a lot that there is no chance of taking it any further, because, frankly, I just don't feel that deep, unwavering connection with her. I tried I really did but its not there like I believe it could be. Something. Something is missing and I cannot find it in her.

I really am looking for a really down girl. That kind of chick that will be there for me through the thick of it and never allow her feeling for me to sputter. I need that type of bond that is always written about but rarely ever truly found.

This lack of a real, powerful love, I think, is Why I have been so BLAH... Well no longer I'm off to go get it... ladies look out The Little Blue Pimp Is Back !