Stupid so stupid

I really hope
Maybe one day
Life will be
Okay again

It was dumb
Doing what I did

And now it's
All wrong




How will I know it okay again?





I hope it's soon




Snow and cold
Just like the
Weather

It's all diferent now

What I did
changed it forever

One day
Somewhere
Can it be again?

Miss something

I really
Did

And now I can't
Get it back

Then again

I don't even know what I'm Doing.


I want
My son

I want
My picket fence

I want
The dream

I have
...:

Well what do
I have?

I need
Everything
That's lost.


What ever
I do

I hope it kills me

I noticed something

What was it
I was writing
Something


But i
Can't
Figure
Out

How I
Was going to
Say it.


Need a buzz.

Need a strong
Buss

I just don't
And can't really be okay.

Opiates

That's the ticket.
Barbituates
The ultimate
Low!


To be that high
And low
At the sametime.


Swimming in the
Fluid underverse
Of my psychē


The absolute
Disconnection.

It's been to long.
It should be now.

Floating in alternate
Realism.

Unimaginable creations
Of the subconsious

A txt
An old
friend

Is that even you?

You look diferent.


I still need a buzz
A friend helps a little

My pixie
Vanished
Gone

Not seen or heard
Gone.



Good night
Sweet
Prince