Some Candy I didn’t share...

So... another What would have been if I wasn't worrying so damn much.... you see there was some sweet Candy I got a chance to have once apon a time. But my Kitty wanted to try it too... She was however not awake when the candy was offered to me... I should have gotten her for a taste too BUT I was unsure of what to do... nad even a little greedy. So I had the candy all to myself and she didn't know I had it... until recently when she found out and was mad that i didn't share...

Moral of the story ?

When you are being hit on by a sexy little blonde with a nice ass, get your girl to join in or she will be angry she didn't get to play too.

Unequivocal Truths of irreversibility

Well I have realized a few truths in the last nights sleepless thought of anxious pain.

The first of which is that I do not feel like I should about someone I AM in love with... its just not a strong enough love for me to try any more, I MUST LET HER GO !


second; I know who I do love enough to try VERY VERY VERY hard to show that too in hopes that it may not be too late...

third; Loneliness sucks... I woke up at like 830, after about a total of 3 hours of sleep, and just laid there until 1130 not wanting to get up and face the day... then I wrote this and went out

Peace...

P.S.

You know who you are and I am unequivocally in love with as I have never felt before... you have always been there for me through think and thin, through good and bad, you care more about me then any one else and I love you deeper then I ever thought I was capable of loving any one.

A Realization

So... This has been an interesting experience for me...

I read a pretty EPIC love story recently and really enjoyed it a lot. This, however promising, is not my normal taste. I have been in Aw at WHY? why would I enjoy a book like this so damn much. It had me thinking for the past 2 days. Wondering.

Finally I realized it. I want that. I want that type of love in my life and have never found it. I am going to have to tell someone I care about a lot that there is no chance of taking it any further, because, frankly, I just don't feel that deep, unwavering connection with her. I tried I really did but its not there like I believe it could be. Something. Something is missing and I cannot find it in her.

I really am looking for a really down girl. That kind of chick that will be there for me through the thick of it and never allow her feeling for me to sputter. I need that type of bond that is always written about but rarely ever truly found.

This lack of a real, powerful love, I think, is Why I have been so BLAH... Well no longer I'm off to go get it... ladies look out The Little Blue Pimp Is Back !